Hello and welcome to the notes, poems, journal entries, songs, and random thoughts of me over the last 5 years. This blog is a project for myself to record the grieving process of my faith deconstructed and unpacking my religious and family trauma.

Just as I was entering my third decade of life, I had my forth baby, quit my job to stay home with my kids and then Covid hit along with existential depression. Weirdly, I believe my depression truly has saved me, as it revealed a depth and complexities in myself I had not realized I possessed. No longer could look at life through rose colored glasses and spiritually bypass pain and uncertainties.

Amazing grief, as I call it, has been the most profound experience, that is guiding me into belonging to myself. I hope my writings inspire you toward a journey of freedom and belonging to yourself as well.